a new day

so i haven;t posted anything in a little while so i figured today might be a good day. i am going to start working out again today and hopefully get somethings done. i woke up a little late cause my husband let me sleep in. and the kids just got up at like 10:30 lol. i love that my children are good sleepers. so i have started praying again cause it is the only thing i know to do. jake has about a week left on his antibiotics and we just found out yesterday he has about 5 more months left on the blood thinners cause the doc said it is a minimum 6 month thing. so today i am out to find him a doctor that can care for his blood thinners and monitor him. money money money i hate that it seems like everything is run by money and i have to figure out how i am going to get all of my bills paid this month lol. i have so many bills and so little money. this is the story of thousands of people right now. i know we have a good thing here even though i can't stand to be here. i kinda feel like i just want to go home and home is florida, but when i saty that i sound like a spoiled littel girl not a mother and wife, so today i am going to start trying to channel my eneergy i am going to workout and i am going to try to spend more quality time with my kids. and my husband too hopefully although he is not very cooperative because he is fighting depression so he is not really in the moood to do anything anymore sadly. the highlight of his day os going to get his antibiotic at the hospital, which i have to say is a good thing, we know all the nurses there and they are so helpful of everything and so sup[portive of all thats going on that it is truly a good thing to have so many people that you do not reallly know care that much about someone. this is the closest thing to friends we have found since we have been here. i had a few at my job as did he but when the jobs went away so did the friends really.so we have been alone for about the last 5 months aside from the few friends we have still in contact and family. which reminds me that i miss my family. i think it is harder knowing that they are closer and i can't see them than it was when i couldn't see them because they were too far. it is going to be hard to move again and know it will be hard to make it up to see them, but i have to do whet the good lords wants for my family and i believe in my heart he will lead us to it. thats what i have been praying for is something that will tell us where we are supposed to be. a job there or a job here or something. i need something to help guide us, something that says we are making the right decision, i am scared to move there and be stuck with no job and no home and end right back up here...blah i dont think i could do it again....