Day 4

so they released jake yesterday. his arm is still really hurting but he seems to be feeling a littleb bit better as the day goes on. i took the kids to the golden arches today because i figure it is good for them to have a little bit of normalcy in their lives, however i am starting to wonder if we will ever have that.... i feel like i am 15 still living at home with my mommy. i am constantly being told what i need to do and when i need to do it, it is rediculous. i can't even go to the store without having to tell everyone i am going and have a list to take with me. i mean come on.........and then today to be told i have been being lazy for the month.... wtf is that.... how and i being lazy when i get up and dressed and am productive most days when all you do is sit on the couch and chain smoke. i mean get real.... like thats not the pot calling the kettle black. i cleaned the bathroom and dusted on tuesday. i do half the cleaning on tuesdays just about every week... it isn;t like i am lying she came home and i told her i did the dusting and the bathroom. that left tiff the floors. i kinda figure it is easier if you have just the floors cause then you can sweep the dust on to the carpet and vaccume it up when you are done. at least that is what i do. but apparently i should have gone down and did them. i mean i dont mind helping tiff if she doesnt feel well etc but i dont want to be TOLD what i need to do. i have a mother and she is not you. i dont tell them what they need to do and i expect the same respect. i was told by jake that i have to start sticking up for myself against them but for me that is a little bit difficult because i am not the confrontational type...i try to be a peace maker but i will not be told what i have to do becasue technically the only person that has a right to do that is glenn. i hate even being in tis situation. but it is a blessing at the time because if it wasn't for us being here we would really be in trouble with this whole foot buisness. so i suppose i will start standing up for myself and just do what i need to do for me and telling everyone else it is none of their buisness... tiff this is not meant to you and i hope you know this.... i just cannot be told what to do and how to do it. my pwn parents dont even do that to me i mean i am 25 married with 2 kids not 14 get fuckin real